SINS - PART TWO

I don't know what is with these damn sins and me, but I just had a bout with another.

Jealousy. I experienced a few moments of outright, unequivocal jealous rage. It was not a good feeling. I felt violent and I'm pretty sure my head just about came clean off. When I snapped out of it, I was emotionally exhausted and thoroughly ashamed at my irrational behavior. Jealousy is weak and smacks of lack of confidence in self and others. It has been used in the name of love, when it really hasn't a thing to do with love. It is an emotion that at one time in my life I rejected. I've had recent encounters with it and it is encompassing. It pains me in that I find this behavior appalling. I am NOT that person, yet I have succumbed to it. Why this is prevalent now is beyond my logic. I despise it. It is sick and small and ruinous. NO good can ever, ever come of it.

So in the days to come, I have to sort this out and seek some answers. I don't particularily look forward to confronting the beast, but it apparently is in me and needs to be given a stern talking to. At that point, perhaps I can return to my previous sanity (shut it - I am so sane........ish) and contain any further outbursts. Peace of heart will then hopefully return to my life.